Why did you go like this?

So i spent the past few days pouring all the memories and thoughts of the past 2 weeks into a 4 part blog. The good, the bad, the exceedingly perplexing. I figured when i finished it would all make sense. Sadly, nothing made sense afterwards. I was just as confused when i finished as i was when i started.

I don't know if im gonna stick it out here. It's long. Its detailed. It maybe shares too much. I dont think any of my readers are going to be able to figure out the mystery anymore than ive been able to. We'll see.

"this is a state of electrical shock
you were so beautiful i thought you’d last forever
but you came and you went when the lights went out
you went like you came
in a light’ning bolt

why did you go like this?
i slam against the wall
it’s crushing my skull
why did you go like this?
i slam against the wall of permanence"

Btw, i dont think i gushed sufficently about Shara Worden of My Brightest Diamond. Really check her out if you havent.

Looking forward to my lunch date today. As ive said before, no sense sitting around and dwelling on the past. If someone chooses to not be in my company, i can't help that. All i can do is seek out and enjoy the people who *do* want to be in my company. Thankfully i have lunch plans with someone like that today.