06/21/09

Nothing
No One
Vacant
Empty
I move from place to place
My memories are all packed away
My feelings poisoned sins
Disbelief
And disappointment
Steeping in the cup
Trying
Willing
Hoping
Praying
Not believing it will matter
Not believing that he cares
Not believing that she cares
Knowing I'm ungrateful
Knowing I'm a lie
Laughing at my helplessness
It's either that or die
Down a hole, up a rope
Down some pills, up some hope
Turned off a light
Turned on a light
Plugged in a alias
Passed a little juice
Watched her swallow sadly
Covered her with care
Slipped right there behind
Nothing i can do
Got to work, it's all i have
These hands are all I'm worth
Worked until my bones are sore
And eyes are heavy loads
Teasing me with covered pressure
My grasp for what i miss
But knowing blue as blue can be
Is destined for my list
Leaving's where i fail each time
Anger
Sadness
Fear
Leaving's when i die each night
Removing from the here
All i am i was then
All i am is left behind
These hands are all I'm left with
With no work left to do
I know these words are faulty
Vomit spewed from pain
I know i cannot touch these thoughts
I know it's all in vain
I know that you just want to help me
Help me heal my pain
I feel so broken for your eyes
Not worthy of your gaze
I need to wash this off somehow
I need to just forget
A better man improves from this
A better man regrets
But me i want the inky blackness
Of troubles washed away
Please don't judge the words right here
I hope for better things
My heart it lies and throws me down
It bullies me and wins
Your green and piercing thoughts for me
Have pulled me through so far
It's strange to think where help comes from
I see it in your eyes