Long Lost Friends

I had fun last night seeing friends i had not seen in awhile. Since we had one couple of friends coming into town for the night, it kinda brought everyone else out of the woodwork. I had a fabulous time. Some seriously full of joy moments.

I love seeing people i have shared my life with. The older i get, the more i enjoy life, and the more i am perplexed by negativity. I know that sometimes in life people hurt us, but why do we hold onto that stuff? Maybe it's our nature, but i just dont get it. There were people at the gathering that have hurt each other, those who have hurt me, and those that i have hurt. I guess that happens when people have been friends for a long time.

Forgiveness is such an amazing gift.

Sure, being forgiven is great, but it's nothing compared to truly forgiving others. It's a hard thing to do, ill be the first to admit to that. When it all comes down, it doesnt matter how hard it is to do, it's worth whatever hardship it may be. Forgive people who have wronged you. I can't stress that enough. Whether it is someone that hurt you once by being selfish, someone who hurt you a few times unknowingly, or someone who hurt you over and over as long as you have known them.

Forgive them.

It will set you free. Seriously. Clears up all this tension and negativity inside. I dont think we realize how much unforgiveness effects us internally.

So there was a little bit of healing last night that was nice. There was someone at the gathering that i had not seen in years, and not spoken to in longer. This wasnt a havent spoken because we have seen each other kinda thing, it was a we lived in the same house and didnt speak kinda thing. I didnt know if it was going to be awkward or anything, and thankfully it wasnt. She gave me a big hug when i got there, we took a few minutes to catch up, and it was like nothing ever happened. Can't ask for much more than that.

The only sad thing about a night like last night is knowing there are some who should have been there but couldnt be. I miss my friends far away. Some of the most special people in my world are miles and miles away. Canada, California, Romania, New York City, North Dakota...

So to all my friends who couldnt be around last night. Know i was thinking of you and missing you. Know that i wished you could be near. Most of all know that im sorry for any of the ways i have ever hurt you. I can be a callous, self centered, thoughtless, selfish man. Please forgive me. Your friendship means the world to me.