Struggling.... and not sleeping

Sure i was in my bed for most of the night, and yeah for some of the time I'm sure i wasn't conscious, but I'm really not comfortable calling that sleeping. Sleeping usually infers some sort of rest or rejuvenation and there was none of that going on.

So i got out of bed at 7am and immediately started to do laundry. If im going to be unrested, unhappy, and slightly out of my mind, at least i can be productive, right?

This way, no matter how my days goes I can take solace in my clean and fresh smelling socks, underwear, and towels. I know it's not much, but it's a start.

Is everyone familiar with the relationship holding patten? This is when one person in a relationship decides for whatever reason that they need space, or they need to reconsider things, or decide how they feel..... or whatever. The relationship goes into a holding pattern until this person figures things out. I'm not sure it ever ends with anything other than the relationship not lasting. Maybe it has happened before, where the person ends their period of space realizing that the relationship they are in is exactly the thing they want and need, but i don't think I've ever been a witness to such things.

Is it too much to ask to find someone who both fits with you as a person, connects with you with unreal chemistry, and is *ready* for the kind of relationship that lasts and works?