Social Experiment

I set myself up a little social experiment tonight. As I've been traveling through this overly dark period of my life the past few weeks, I've tightened my social circle considerably. Pretty much co-workers (out of necessity), family, my arborist, and Jim are the only people I've seen.

I generally view this as a wise move. Look at this blog, what kind of conversationalist would i have been? Probably not my usual positive, encouraging, laid back self.

So I'm going out tonight. Not a date, it's someone who knows i don't have those kind of intentions with her, just a dinner to catch up with someone.

I have no idea if i can do this. My heart has been so heavy, I'm not sure i know how to have normal conversation. I certainly don't want to talk about the shite I'm constantly talking about here, but i dunno. I don't know where i am at, what i am capable of.

So we will see. Wish me luck!