Another Mix.....

Artist: FV MIX
Title: FV MIX
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01 - Rainer Mairia - Catastrophe
02 - Rilo Kiley - Portions For Foxes
03 - Yeah Yeah Yeahs - Gold Lion
04 - K's Choice - Almost Happy
05 - Letters To Cleo - I Got Time
06 - Portishead - Toy Box
07 - Jem - Come On Closer
08 - Zero 7 - In The Waiting Line
09 - Utada Hikaru - Passion
10 - Veruca Salt / Somebody
11 - Feist - Mushaboom
12 - Rosie Thomas - Pretty Dress
13 - Kat Jones - One More Second Chance
14 - Sleater-Kinney - Night Light
15 - Lhasa - Con Toda Palabra
16 - Neko Case / Star Witness
17 - Over The Rhine - Changes Come

LNMIX

Artist: LNMIX
Title: LNMIX
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01 - LN - The Painter
02 - LN - California
03 - LN - And The Angels
04 - LN - Never Meant To Make You Cry
05 - LN - What Would You Give in Exchange for Your Soul
06 - LN - Chirstmas Tiger
07 - LN - Fall Where They May
08 - LN - Slow Train To Hell
09 - LN - the ocean plays the saddest songs
10 - LN - Cars Must Burn
11 - LN - Invisible
12 - LN - Down In The Willow Garden
13 - LN - Modern Day Hobo
14 - LN - Break Your Bones
15 - LN - Nerves Left Exposed
16 - LN - Gravity Of It All
17 - LN - Stars Did Shine
18 - LN - Softly And Tenderly

Emerald Stardust Part 1.5

Invisible (G. Murray)

Long before I ever knew you or wrote you a song
And dreamed at night that I could hold you
And wake in your arms
But I said goodbye before you arrived
I said goodbye before you looked in my eyes

And I hear them talk at all the places we never went
Smile back at all the faces and try to pretend
I didn't say goodbye before you arrived
I didn't say goodbye
Didn't hurt you
Didn't push you aside

And you were mine
But you couldn't see me

Am I invisible?
Am I?

A Well Spent $5

Last weekend i made a roadtrip to Detroit to see Kat Jones, Gary Murray, For Wishes, and Aspen Hollow. All for a mere $5. A bargain indeed.

It was my first time seeing or hear Aspen Hollow or For Wishes. A good friend of mine had been touting For Wishes for awhile and i can see why. Very enjoyable songwriting. Steve was a nice guy and hopefully ill be seeing more of him. There is talk of bring him and Gary to Buffalo or Toronto for a show. Aspen Hollow was touring from Fresno with Kat, and was also very enjoyable.

Gary Murray was *amazing* even though fairly hard to hear for most of the show. He remembered me from when i saw him Pittsburgh over a year which startled me. I never think im a momorable person. He has inspired me to make an LN cd which im doing right now. Ill post the track list when its completed.

Kat was spectacular. I dont think i would ever tire of hearing her sing live. She treated us to two new songs which were both excellent. I cant wait to hear some of the new demos, which will hopefully be in the mail in the coming weeks. Kat was, as always, fun to spend a little time with. Weird to think it was over two years since i saw her last.

Concerts like that are the very reason i listen to music. Seeing four artists of that caliber playing for 25 people in small coffee house in a detroit suburb on a hot April night... pouring their hearts out through music for anyone to take and make their own. Magical. I dont think ill ever tire of it. Ill be that 60 year old guy at the back of the concert, soaking in the newest artist. =)

Interstingly enough, the concert was right off 9 Mile, only a mile away from 8 Mile. Neither Marshall Mathers or Kid Rock were in attendance.

Dreaming of Much Violence

The DMV is gonna be the death of me. I just want to re-register my vehicle. Is that so wrong?

::weeps::

Emerald Stardust

Some people grab your heart in ways that never let go.

That's a good thing, i think, but not always easy. There is a girl whom i love a great deal. A girl i was ready to give up all the things in life that i usually clutch close to me, just to be closer to. But it was not meant to be. She made choices that she felt were right for her (and may very well have been), and i took a backseat, removing myself from the equation.

Its been over a year since all that took place, and aside from my thoughts and prayers, i have been uninvolved and uninformed regarding the progress of this woman's life. Its only this past week that i've been blessed enough to get a peek into this life again, as well as a chance to reconnect, however slightly, with this woman i'll always love.

I am of course, torn. I was hoping to hear that some of things i had reservations about back then had now faded away, but it seems that at least some of them are still there. It's hard for me to make any judgements. For one, im far removed from the situation and any opinions i make are with only a slight few pieces of info. Secondly, im not exactly an impartial observer. This was a woman i was ready to mesh my life with and commit to some serious things. Can i ever really be impartial on the "other guy"?

When it all comes down, it doesnt matter. My place is pretty simple now. I pray for her, for thier family... and if need be, i be there for her. In whatever capacity i can.

Sometimes i wish i could just sit down with the guy and talk to him. Explain to him what an amazing woman he has and explain some areas that need to be shaped up. A bit self righteous i know, but there is one thing i would tell him to do that seems pretty obvious for a man that is a husband and father.

Sometimes i also wish i didnt back down back then. The part of me that wonders what would have happened if i had drove up to this woman's home and said "Here i am, im real, im here, and im ready do to whatever it takes to make your life, and the life of the little one to come, secure, happy, and complete". I was an inch away from doing this, but didnt. I thought i was respecting her wishes. Maybe i was. It doesnt change that i often wonder what her response would have been to that.