Do not decode these cries of mine, they are the road and not the sign

Sunday, August 28, 2005

Questions i stole from Bnakedlady...

1. What is your occupation? Currently i am a Quality Assurance Coach. I know, it's ok to be jealous.

2. What color is your underwear? Boxers that have Homer Simpson dressed as Santa, stuck in a Chimney saying "Oh cruel fate, why must you mock me?"

3. What are you listening to right now? Someone trying to play guitar. Badly.

4. What was the last thing you ate? A venti no water Chai from Starbucks. I know thats a beverage. Last solid food would be an assortment of veggies that were grilled.

5. Do you wish on stars? I dont think i ever have, but maybe i should start. I have a lot of wishes.

6. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? Do they have a color called "Hairy"?

7. How is the weather right now? Too hot. Bring on the snow.

8. Last person you spoke to on the phone? My friend that i have been seriously neglecting, Emily. (Sorry Emily!)

9. Do you like the person who sent this to you? I stole it from someone's Blog, but she's a swell gal.

10. How old are you today? 28

11. Favorite drink? Chai. Cold beverage would be a ice cold Saranac Root Beer.

12. Favorite sport to watch? College Basketball in person

13. Have you ever dyed your hair? Yes, Purple and blond, but the blond came out copper.

14. Do you wear contacts or glasses? Just glasses. I dont like touching my eyes.

15. Pets? Nope

16. Favorite month? September i suppose.

17. Favorite food? Hmmmm. Artichokes, steak, anything grilled.

18. What was the last movie you watched? Garden State.

19. Favorite day of the year? Valentine's Day.

20. What do you do to vent anger? Loud music and fast driving.

21. Fall or Spring? Fall is the best season ever. Crisp cold air. Windy days. Blowing leaves. Introspection abounds!

22. Hugs or kisses? Hugs. Lots of hugs.

23. Cherry or Blueberry? Can i choose strawberry?

24. Who do you live with? Solo for the most part.

25. When was the last time you cried? Hard to remember. Over a year ago. Maybe my aunt's funeral?

26. What is on the floor of your closet? Lots of ties.

27 Who is the friend you have had the longest and still see? Matthew. Friends since kindergarden.

28. What did you do last night? Giant Picnic with my family. Was a really good time. Watch home movies of me when i was two. I used to be cute. Im not sure what happened.

29. Favorite smell? No Comment.

30. What inspires you? My father.

31. What are you afraid of? Hurting those i love.

32. Plain, cheese or spicy hamburgers? Doesnt matter, as long as i grill it myself.

33. Favorite car? Lately ive been eyeing lots of Audi TTs and Nissan 350Zs

34. Favorite dog breed? Dont like dogs

35. Number of keys on your key ring? I cant count that high.

36. How many years at your current job? 2

37. Favorite day of the week? Anyone i can sleep in on.

38. How many states have you lived in? 1 state and one Province.

39. How many cities have you lived in/name them? 4 - Youngstown Ny, Nyack NY, Ottawa Ontario, Niagara Falls NY

40.Sex or food? (What a strange question to end this survey with!) Depends what's on the menu (for both options =)

Music and Motorcycles.

Shocking that i would write about this topic, eh? In the next two weeks i get to see The Juliana Theory, Lovedrug, U2, Dashboard Confessional, and Sufjan Stevens. Not a bad few weeks. I actually had to *pass* on an Over The Rhine show since i was doing too many other things.

Having a very nice weekend. Sis is up from Florida, so its been fun seeing her a bit. She just spent six grand on a 2006 Honda Shadow motorcycle. Crazy. I hope it keeps her safe.

Sunday, August 21, 2005

Didn't i just talk about this?

Sigh... Yeah so my relationship. Took a bit of a downspin the past week or so. Im not really sure what happened except i never see my girlfriend much anymore, and have no idea what's going on in her life or head. I guess i would be ok with that from time to time if it seemed like there was some sort of effort going on to change that. I just dont see it. I dont feel like im a priority for this girl, and im not too good with that. If im going to try and make a relationship work (especially one that i had reservations about going into in the first place) then the other party needs to me making an effort as well.

Sorry, ill stop whining. Im probably not dealing with it well either. I sent her a text letting her know i wasnt particularly happy, and i was going to take some time to think about things. This is about the 3rd or 4th time in about a week i have brought this stuff up, so it wasnt like i was sending this kind of text out of nowhere, but still. Hopefully we will get a chance to talk tonight, but i have no idea if that will happen. The MO or our relationship lately has been to make plans after i point how little we actually see each other, only to have those plans cancelled by my partner. Maybe tonight will be different. Maybe not.

No word on the job front. Hopefully ill get a little clarity tomorrow when business hours resume.

Tuesday, August 16, 2005

Updates of all kinds

Ach, had a pretty crappy weekend. Saturday morning i injured myself golfing. Yes, golfing. I didnt think that was possible, but my shoulder is reminding me that it is possible, almost 24 hours a day. I had planned a date night on Saturday as well, and that got torn apart pretty well by a variety of things. Sunday wasnt too bad, had a really nice lunch (Vietnamese!) with a friend i hadn't seen all summer, and went to a barbecue and made myself a nice steak.

Monday morning, already feeling like less of a man because i had a golf injury, i managed to pass out..... at an *eye* exam. I always manage to surprise myself.

The girl and i had a dicey weekend, most likely because we were looking forward to a nice night together on Saturday, and it really didnt happen. We smoothed over a bit of it, but i think there is still some stuff there to get resolved. I think the fact that each of us are way to busy and stressed is finally making its way to the actual relationship. I dont see too many problems coming from it, im just looking forward to getting past it.

Jobs are interesting. The job that i really want has a 5 step hiring process. You have to pass each step to move to the next. I have passed 4 of the 5, and am waiting on them to schedule the fifth step. If i pass that one (an interview with the head of the program) then im in. I really hope it happens cause i really want this particular job. Its a good company that treats its people well. It would be nice to start a career and not just have another job.

Monday, August 08, 2005

Jobs

So i think im quitting my job this week. I have two other possible jobs waiting in the wings, one that has already extended me a job offer, one that is interviewing me in oh.... about 30 mins.

I think either would be preferable to my current job now that i have been passed over for the same promotion twice. I keep getting the crappiest feedback about why i am not getting the position. My favorite is when the higher ups tell me "It took me eight tries to get promoted". Right. That isnt feedback about me, that's feedback about how crappy my company is at advancing the talent they employ. What a load.

(when i spellchecked this post, it didnt like the word "crappiest". Im ok with that. The odd thing was that it only had one suggestion: gravesite. Are those words supposed to be similar?)

Monday, August 01, 2005

About a Boy

While i am a gigantic U2 fan, i listen to their actual albums very seldomly. I have so much live material, and they thrive so much live, that i would almost always listen to a live version of a song over a studio version. So the albums just kind of sit there having to settle for being necessary to complete my massive U2 collection.

As i went for a drive yesterday i took my copy of "Boy" with me. This was the first time i have listened to this album this century. I can't believe how good of an album it is! I was blown away. I had long forgotten the magic of An Cat Dubh/Into the Heart. I was surprised at how fresh Out of Control and The Electric Co sounded. I was really impressed.

I might have to start going through the other neglected studio discs. Shockingly, The Unforgettable Fire is high on that list... Might have to be next.